Criminal Minds Anyone?

So typical lunch discussion today.

I always have something to say.  The topic was taking the 407....quickly my brain went into undercover mode type thinking and....

Man...if only I can have a car with a button that flipped over license plates.  I'd dodge that 407 photo snapper and that bill that randomly comes in the mail months later !

Hire a hacker to register each license plate on the car to a random made up Joe and boom......smooth sailing.  (giggles) ....as if I take the 407 much any ways, but it was a wicked scene that happened in my head.

Like a typical scene from the movie Jason Statham is in.  Transporter type-a-way.

Hahaha...

Best part of that quick undercover thinking motion ......is.... I'd never really do it.  Just think it would be awesome to have something of such available like that to me.  That moment would make life seem thrilling and give it a little excitement.  Can I get an "hell ya" ?

Just think what endless possibilities there would be if any vision or thought that comes to mind could actually happen...like legit ones in action movies!

Whaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt.......I'd be a ninja several times of day...zap some people like Scott from X-men....and create some lighting like Storm and cause electricity to knock out at work to have a PAID day off.  Who's with me?

Picture me rollllinnnnnnnnn' and be hated (did you get the number of lyrical songs I've used thus far?)

Hahaha

If only super human powers were legit and real.  I'd probably be invisible, randomly make miracles happen for people yet at the same time...get rid of things that annoyed me hahhahaha

On that note....the real question here is readers......if you had super powers.....what would you want and what would be your purpose?

Writer's Block ?! Really?

I didn't think it existed.
Totally does.

I have had nothing to write about lately.
I think its because I've been content these last few weeks/month.

Getting ME back mentally and physically.

This is a good thing people.

Sad, only because I have no "topic" to throw out in the open.


I think now more then anything I need to get on a goal oriented mindset.  Figure out what my next accomplishment will be....give myself a time frame .....stay focused and get'her done!

This limbo and not writing is kinda killing me, as relaxing as it has truly been.....its kinda of driving me crazy!

Any who....just updating my fellow followers on what's up!

Toodles

Empty Place

I have reached a destination in my life that seems EMPTY.


A lot happened in the month of May and I have yet to shake it all off mentally.

If you know me, I am the type of person who overcomes everything eventually, but right now I am standing still way to long for my liking.

Physically my body is happier, but mentally I've hit a dark place. It sucks to know this and its upsetting as I know what it's like to be on CLOUD 9 both mentally and physically. So to be in a dark place you only want to see the light again!

The best part of this dark experience thus far
(yup spinning a tiny postive here) is I know I wont be in it for long...
It's like I look around within myself and think, why am I keeping myself in this place... It's like a trap I created all by myself....for what though?


I hate pity parties nor do I want to dance in one for ANY period of time....maybe for about 5 minutes, (haha) but anything past that time frame -
HELL NO! 
Let's keep the bus moving.







My lack of motivation and my conversations with God....are at the point of life support. You hear the monitor beeping and sit there waiting for the body to RISE UP again and talk POSITIVE as if the journey you were just in never happened....but the monitor for me is not changing.

SELF is playing a HUGE role in not wanting to let this go -

BELIEVE and TRUST the man upstairs has more in store for my firecracker self !

The best part is so many people encourage me daily, check in on me, curious to see my next moves and goals and I really have NOTHING right now....

Cie La Vie

The past is the past.  People come in and out your life for reasons and even seasons.

I experienced a confirmation recently that made this statement show its true colours and I felt the need to blog about it, because not everyone thinks the same as me and well I haven't said much in a while to my fellow readers.

At times I have visions of my past, as I'm sure we all do.  Now, my visions are vividly real.  It actually feels like I am re-living that moment all over again for the split second.  Its kind of cool, but freaky at the same time.

These visions usual trigger because others mention specific people to me and then weeks or months go by and boom!

I get taken back for a brief moment.
Usually someone specific is shown to me...
Its usually a good recap of a good time or a funny moment or the last situation that took place with that someone doing something.

Then I think:  "Awe...I wonder how they are doing.."

If my gut instinct tells me to approach them, whether I'd be a text, call or email, for whatever reason, I reach out.  Why you ask?  Because I sincerely care and will wonder.  So I eliminate that wonder and get to the bottom of it.

Then I send a specific message....

Sometimes I get a response back...
...great ones that really make me smile...
...weird ones which are pretty cool to hear about or...
nothing at all, which I think is fair and understandable.

Then there are those responses that make me wish I never even CARED to ask, as its a response that doesn't sit well within me.

It replays that that moment in time,
that lifestyle,
certain people,
those characteristics...and then I realize,
Ahhhh not much has changed!
My heart actually hurts when I get those responses. Makes me sad.

Reason is, I'm always wanting to help people out.  No matter what's happened in this past.  I want to see people successful, happy and doing well for themselves.  Yet at the end of the day, I need to realize that doors shut closed for a reason.
My mind says:  "...perhaps for only a season?...."        Ahhhh No!

That person or that group of friends you surrounded yourself with at one time or another....were only there for those specific times in your life.  There is no need for any continuation, unless its a mutual thing, and as awesome as that could potentially be, 98% of the time its not mutual at all by one of the parties involved.

So...
We all grow up.
Learn.
Overcome.
Forgive.
Let go.
Move forward.
Develop better characteristics....

...and yet some people just decide to live in the same atmosphere, have the same attitude towards life and its circumstances. Not really caring at all to change one thing about themselves.


So...moral of the story here is...Keep the memories locked away and if they pop in your head, just chuckle about it and continue about your day.

You maybe the one to care, worry and think of people....but chances of them thinking of you are pretty damn slim to none.

They probably never cared too much of you, so why not follow their lead?!

Toodles

Changing Perspectives....Let's Go !

So most of you know I have a little dog, who is my world!
Every morning when I rise and am about to stretch, he props up, tail starts wagging a mile a minute and he approaches me in mid-stretch also and comes to give me kisses.

The other day when he did this, i thought to myself...
"Imagine if we woke up daily in that much excitement to start our day?"

Whether it be to go to work, feed your kids, hit the gym, make breakfast....Think how that would change our whole prespective on life??

Think of how happier (mentally) we maybe and inspire others if we change our thought process before "the natural menality of man" hits us and makes us jump start the day WRONG!

Positive thinking and/or comments changes perspectives and morale in people and the places they maybe in.

Mankind has killed our thoughts by even BRINGING into existance negative words, phrases and attitudes.

IF we don't try to change that within ourselves and analyst the BAD and change it to GOOD......your just going to sign up for mysery, which to me can literally KILL.  The same way cancer and other diseases kill people, mysery can also do the same believe it or not.

So I challenge you today readers, take your OLD life....and start FRESH to a new day, a new perspective and a whole NEW challenging world your eyes will be OPEN to seeing...

Saying YES to the dress..

Drove past a wedding dress shop Saturday.
As I glanced over, my thoughts got the best of me.
In the window displays four dresses.
Different each week, I'm sure.

Now I've driven past this shop several times before.  This is nothing new, but one things for sure, I always critic one of the four dresses. 

Anyways, I believe that ever girl should have that opportunity in life.
To try on that beautiful gown, eventually walk down the aisle with it, be centre of attention for that one special day and say yes to the love of their life.

Ahhh...what a special moment.  It actually puts a big smile on my face.

Never pictured that for myself and it wasn't until one of my close friends got married that it dawned on me to think if I ever wanted that for myself some day.

Not sure why I never picture it, but I've always laughed thinking, "pffghhh ya right, I'll never see the day."  

Kinda sad. 

Well, that Saturday was a different day, let me tell ya.

When passing the store I thought,  "Awe, maybe one day."  There was no criticing happening that day.

I blame the sparkle on one of the dresses!! 
(giggles)

It made me say "yes" to a dress some day. 
I want that for myself damn it.
Now that I think of it, which women doesn't?

Didn't think I had the girly flame in me, did ya? 
It does show up at times.

It makes me tear up.  
Picturing my father walking me down an aisle, to face the love of my life and saying I do for the rest of my life...

Wow.   

It's dreamy.
Romantic even and it's something that I would want more then anything.   Who am I kidding!

Throughout that Saturday afternoon, I was surrounded by couples and families, making this brain of mine run on high speed. I thought to myself...

A relationship that has unity, love and respect is something to look forward to as you get older.  
You ween through potential candidates, an experience all in itself,  and you get to explore the things you want, what you don't want, and what you're willing to compromise on. 

When you find that special someone you will just know! 
(So I've been told)


I'm still waiting, but excited to know that one day I will look like a princess, have my king and ring!









  

Wake Eeeee Wake Eeeeeee....

Dear Mornings:

I get it, we aren’t friends and quite frankly, I don’t think we will ever be! 

I remember you creeping up on me in the mornings through the curtains trying to wake my brother and I up for school.  The cover and pillows knew their role and helped us stay in bed as long as we possibly could to avoid your BRIGHT self.  
 
Then you decided to get Mom involved. Screw the alarm, you by passed that guy!  Having her come in the bedroom to shake us out of bed just to join you!  Not cool.  What have I done to you ever? Hmmm? You loved working with her didn’t you?  

 

Even today you still creep through the blinds, smiling and wanting me to smile with you.   The cover and pillows are just way too comfy for my liking.  Who wants to play in the early hours anyway?  

Mom has since retired her role in helping you out and you have now tag teamed with my alarm clock and added a SNOOZE feature!!! Way to go Genius!  By the way, the most annoying ring tones I have to choose from for this alarm clock, what’s up with that?

Now don’t get me wrong morning, you are great when I do want to indulge and soak in your  warmth and embrace, but not first thing in the morning.  Especially if I have to WAKE UP for work.  Pfghhh. 

To this day,as an adult, I struggle getting up in the early morning.   I am definitely not a morning person nor do I feel I will ever be.  My brain doesn’t operate till approx. 10:30am-ish.  I've come to the conclusion today, that this is just the way it’s going to be and the INFAMOUS line of “I’m tired or I’m exhausted” will be forever embedded in me.   I think I just need to accept it and shut it.

What makes me laugh thinking of the future, is when I become a senior citizen, I definitely won't be that lady waking up at 5am making tea or coffee reading the news paper while the birds start chirping outside.  HA!  Not this chick let.  I will be the one sleeping in and getting to those items when I wake up! 

So with that said, if you ever see me before say 10am, don’t expect the bubbliest-person….she’s still sleeping!