Criminal Minds Anyone?

So typical lunch discussion today.

I always have something to say.  The topic was taking the 407....quickly my brain went into undercover mode type thinking and....

Man...if only I can have a car with a button that flipped over license plates.  I'd dodge that 407 photo snapper and that bill that randomly comes in the mail months later !

Hire a hacker to register each license plate on the car to a random made up Joe and boom......smooth sailing.  (giggles) ....as if I take the 407 much any ways, but it was a wicked scene that happened in my head.

Like a typical scene from the movie Jason Statham is in.  Transporter type-a-way.

Hahaha...

Best part of that quick undercover thinking motion ......is.... I'd never really do it.  Just think it would be awesome to have something of such available like that to me.  That moment would make life seem thrilling and give it a little excitement.  Can I get an "hell ya" ?

Just think what endless possibilities there would be if any vision or thought that comes to mind could actually happen...like legit ones in action movies!

Whaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt.......I'd be a ninja several times of day...zap some people like Scott from X-men....and create some lighting like Storm and cause electricity to knock out at work to have a PAID day off.  Who's with me?

Picture me rollllinnnnnnnnn' and be hated (did you get the number of lyrical songs I've used thus far?)

Hahaha

If only super human powers were legit and real.  I'd probably be invisible, randomly make miracles happen for people yet at the same time...get rid of things that annoyed me hahhahaha

On that note....the real question here is readers......if you had super powers.....what would you want and what would be your purpose?

Writer's Block ?! Really?

I didn't think it existed.
Totally does.

I have had nothing to write about lately.
I think its because I've been content these last few weeks/month.

Getting ME back mentally and physically.

This is a good thing people.

Sad, only because I have no "topic" to throw out in the open.


I think now more then anything I need to get on a goal oriented mindset.  Figure out what my next accomplishment will be....give myself a time frame .....stay focused and get'her done!

This limbo and not writing is kinda killing me, as relaxing as it has truly been.....its kinda of driving me crazy!

Any who....just updating my fellow followers on what's up!

Toodles

Empty Place

I have reached a destination in my life that seems EMPTY.


A lot happened in the month of May and I have yet to shake it all off mentally.

If you know me, I am the type of person who overcomes everything eventually, but right now I am standing still way to long for my liking.

Physically my body is happier, but mentally I've hit a dark place. It sucks to know this and its upsetting as I know what it's like to be on CLOUD 9 both mentally and physically. So to be in a dark place you only want to see the light again!

The best part of this dark experience thus far
(yup spinning a tiny postive here) is I know I wont be in it for long...
It's like I look around within myself and think, why am I keeping myself in this place... It's like a trap I created all by myself....for what though?


I hate pity parties nor do I want to dance in one for ANY period of time....maybe for about 5 minutes, (haha) but anything past that time frame -
HELL NO! 
Let's keep the bus moving.







My lack of motivation and my conversations with God....are at the point of life support. You hear the monitor beeping and sit there waiting for the body to RISE UP again and talk POSITIVE as if the journey you were just in never happened....but the monitor for me is not changing.

SELF is playing a HUGE role in not wanting to let this go -

BELIEVE and TRUST the man upstairs has more in store for my firecracker self !

The best part is so many people encourage me daily, check in on me, curious to see my next moves and goals and I really have NOTHING right now....

Cie La Vie

The past is the past.  People come in and out your life for reasons and even seasons.

I experienced a confirmation recently that made this statement show its true colours and I felt the need to blog about it, because not everyone thinks the same as me and well I haven't said much in a while to my fellow readers.

At times I have visions of my past, as I'm sure we all do.  Now, my visions are vividly real.  It actually feels like I am re-living that moment all over again for the split second.  Its kind of cool, but freaky at the same time.

These visions usual trigger because others mention specific people to me and then weeks or months go by and boom!

I get taken back for a brief moment.
Usually someone specific is shown to me...
Its usually a good recap of a good time or a funny moment or the last situation that took place with that someone doing something.

Then I think:  "Awe...I wonder how they are doing.."

If my gut instinct tells me to approach them, whether I'd be a text, call or email, for whatever reason, I reach out.  Why you ask?  Because I sincerely care and will wonder.  So I eliminate that wonder and get to the bottom of it.

Then I send a specific message....

Sometimes I get a response back...
...great ones that really make me smile...
...weird ones which are pretty cool to hear about or...
nothing at all, which I think is fair and understandable.

Then there are those responses that make me wish I never even CARED to ask, as its a response that doesn't sit well within me.

It replays that that moment in time,
that lifestyle,
certain people,
those characteristics...and then I realize,
Ahhhh not much has changed!
My heart actually hurts when I get those responses. Makes me sad.

Reason is, I'm always wanting to help people out.  No matter what's happened in this past.  I want to see people successful, happy and doing well for themselves.  Yet at the end of the day, I need to realize that doors shut closed for a reason.
My mind says:  "...perhaps for only a season?...."        Ahhhh No!

That person or that group of friends you surrounded yourself with at one time or another....were only there for those specific times in your life.  There is no need for any continuation, unless its a mutual thing, and as awesome as that could potentially be, 98% of the time its not mutual at all by one of the parties involved.

So...
We all grow up.
Learn.
Overcome.
Forgive.
Let go.
Move forward.
Develop better characteristics....

...and yet some people just decide to live in the same atmosphere, have the same attitude towards life and its circumstances. Not really caring at all to change one thing about themselves.


So...moral of the story here is...Keep the memories locked away and if they pop in your head, just chuckle about it and continue about your day.

You maybe the one to care, worry and think of people....but chances of them thinking of you are pretty damn slim to none.

They probably never cared too much of you, so why not follow their lead?!

Toodles